Y’all. I don’t know. Let me be clear on one thing. I actually find TikTok helpful and I love it. I downloaded it in late summer because my bestie, Jackie, informed me that I could get some good advice for dressing my midsized body and I was all, “What’s midsize?” And she was all, “Oh girl. Buckle up.” And then I found all these sweet and lovely creators who opened my eyes to a whole new world of understanding my early 40s, post-3 babies body. My struggle now is most of them are in the 20s & 30s and I work on a college campus so I’m not trying to dress like my students but I am trying to not be that over caffeinated Aunt whose had the same hair style since the mid 70s and longs for a different time. I do want to be relevant. I also do want you to take your hands off my skinny jeans and leave me the f*ck alone about them. “But Whit”, you might be thinking, “the world is on fire! Who gives a rat’s ass about clothing?!?” Me. 👋 I do. I’ve loved clothing, make up, playing with my look, hair, since as far back as I can remember. There is not enough time in the world to go through the amount of hair styles I have gone through. I genuinely find putting an outfit together fun and creative, even if I do look like a slob more often than not. The Look for Less and What Not to Wear we’re my favorite shows for so long. But I lost myself for a while — lost in the pandemic, in a sea of leggings and feeling utterly terrible about myself for no longer being the size 8/10 I was for nearly 20 years. But now? Even with all of TikToks deep issues, it has also given me a new view on how to go about finding myself again. It’s so ridiculous but also so real for me. I don’t know if I will keep posting on the platform. I regretted losing my anonymity on it within an hour of posting so we’ll see. I also can’t post links to my Linktree cause I don’t have 1000 followers and I don’t have the energy for the hustle it’ll take to get there. I’m also very aware that my old followers from my Instagram life might be disappointed that I’m not the Jewish warrior princess I was on that platform but the toll that took on me was too much. So here’s to experimenting and it all not being the worst. Here’s also so pics from the last 3 weeks in which we visited my mom at her house in Asheville before she moved to Wilmington, NC, my team and I from work threw a massive community-wide Shabbat program after our sukkah was vandalized during Sukkot, and I don’t remember what else happened in the last 3 weeks because that took over my life. Until next time, find me on TikTok and have zero expectations that I know what I’m doing! 😘🤌
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